54 More Days..

Its 54 more days to my big day but somehow i don't feel happy at all.. It seems that a lot of bad things have been happening around me.

Firstly, angry with one of my "good" friend that she can abandon me for lunch when one of the other colleague call her out early to buy lunch. My thought was that is that friend more important than me or am i not that important to her at all. I have been upset on her on this issue for one week. Today when i see her again, i am still very upset.

Next is the grandmother brother pass away and my parents went to the wake and even will be attending the sending off of the funeral. I am their daughter and i am getting married soon. why can't they think of how unlucky it will be for me if they go and attend the wake?? My father even expect me to attend the wake too.. OMG!! What kind of father do i have?? One who care about relative we seldom contact and don't care about his own daughter..

Next is my new house.. Till now, renovation has not been done and my stupid boyfriend keep playing mission impossible. Let's imagine what would happen if the renovation is not complete on time and that we do not ahve a new house to go to for my wedding day!! Let's imagine..

I feel that i am getting real stress up on all this issue and really do not have interest to work anymore. Been feeling sad and down and nothing could make me happy and i even have to feel worse with all this issue happening around me..

WHAT SHOULD I DO??