Andy Lau Concert in 2008

The concert was pro loh!!! Although his dressing was not that fantastic, the background effect of the show was very very very good!! Andy was handsome and his singing was !!!! I do not know which word should i use to describe but i really love it!!

Chiangmai Trip 08

2 more days and i will be going to Thailand again.. Last year December i went to Chiangmai with my Scout Troop and this year i will be going with my boyfriend.. We will be spending 4 days in Chiangmai and 2 days in Bangkok itself.. A month ago, riots were up at Bangkok and i was then worried that my trip will be affected. Then thoughts of my friends being disappointed come to my mind.. Finally we do not have to worry anymore and off we will be going in 2 days time.. Yupeeeeee

T-Shirts

From the start, i sense that there will be a lot of disagreement on this issue and i have make it a point that i do not want to be involve in this. I do not want to be the one conveting the message to the seniors and i do not want to involve the juniors on the decision!! Conclusion i do not want to be the middleman!! Why is it that frustration are vent on me?? I did not do anything but yet I am the one that ganna.. Why why why?? I know you all don't like me and hope that i will leave here as soon as possible.. But is it fair for me?? I come here becoz of the boys but yet I don't know if what i am doing is actually benefitting the troop.. If someone would come forward and tell me that what i have done is wrong and if i leave, it will be better for everyone i will go.. But why is this happening to me?? Do i really fail as a leader?? Do i???

My Favourite Past Time

To me, this has been part of my life for more than 13 years. I love it and still enjoy it. However, it seems that there are always things that can make me unhappy and feel like leaving. When the thought come to my mind, i will always tell myself that it is because of my junior that i am there.
We have a meeting a few nights ago and during the meeting, a sentence was shot to me, "Esther, You can go le".. How do i feel??? Very upset as usual. I don't understand if they intentionally or unintentionally ask me to leave but i believe whoever is the one that receive this comment will break down ba if this is related to something that he or she love.
I really hope someone will appear from somewhere and tell me that what i have been doing is deeply appreciated.

My Past Is Hunting Me

Why can't i get forget the past?? To me.. everything seems to have happen just yesterday.. The betrayal that i need face then was too fatal for me. I would like to write this history in the blog in the hope that everything will leave me alone.
It happen back in 2004. Everybody say that when the boy go into army, the girl will find another boyfriend and everything will end then. However, this did not happen to me and my boyfriend then. We were happily together and i was waiting for him to complete his army life so that we can start making plans for the future. 2004 was his final year in his army life and we were together then for about 5 years. But as the year goes, our quarrel over the phone become constant and soon everything ended. I was very distraught and tried ways and means to salvage this relationship until a good friend of mine told me this. "Actually, I saw him and her together a few weeks ago on the MRT."
This sentence was said to me just one week of our breakup and do you all know how i feel??? There was so much betrayal and so much anger. How should i face the others in future and how should i continue my life with this kind of betrayal?? One was my best friend and one was my boyfriend. I never ever thought that this will happen to me as i always thought this only happen in movie.
My life came to a stop then and soon it seems that i am losing myself. I become someone who i also do not know and the fact is i do know what is wrong with me but no matter what i do, i can't turn back to the person i use to be.
Everything is still so fresh in my mind and i really hope some day i will forget everything on this.