Counting down to my big day!!

haizzz.. 8 more months and my big day is here.. but somehow i do not feel nervous at all.. why neh?? haizzz.. a lot of things have been happening during the last few months ever since 2009 started.. I am not happy at all.. Is 2009 really going to be a bad year for me?? These few days were in contact with Qingguo and it seems we have been missing a lot of each other lifes for the past one year. A lot of catching up was done and he as usual, has give me the confidence to talk to him on my fears.. That day i even scream at him as he ask me a question which i hate to hear "Where is Shihui?" The mention of her name makes my blood boil.. eeeeeee.... Now i keep seeing her name as we share the same friends in facebook.. To make it sound ugly, who is she to be sharing our past when she was not there most of the time?? haizz.. When can i ever get over the hurt she has applied on me??